My heart is too big
To fit on my sleeve-
Too many thoughts,
Too much to believe.
A kaleidoscope mind
Stuck only with grey,
A symphony soul
With one note to play.
I reach for the words
To hang on each thought,
How can I prove
That I’m not a robot?
For women are supposed
To show what they feel,
Their face and their body
Can never conceal
The waves of emotion
Crashing up and down,
To light up with joy
Or collapse with a frown.
People think that you’re fine
Unless your eyes leak
Your sadness straight down
Your shuddering cheeks.
They won’t know you’re in love
Unless you preen and flirt,
And follow the script
And never assert.
I’ve tried and I’ve tried
To be what they expect,
But I’m either quiet
Or unfailingly direct.
These games of hearts
Are not worth the charades;
And as for charm:
I don’t have it in spades.
I can’t be a wall flower
When I’m so off-the-wall,
And if I could choose
I wouldn’t change it at all.
My mind is just right
To fit in a book,
So I write and I write
And I hope people look.
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Image source “Poppy Field”- Vincent Van Gogh